i Don’t Want to be a Masochist

Don't Wanna Be a Masochisti used to describe myself as a lite masochist many years ago. And, before that, i thought i was actually a masochist, until admitting such would land me in BIG trouble with many Sadists at the time. The masochistic ways i had earned as a young sub, was done so at a time where most Dommes knew nothing but sadism. i got into the scene with an interest in just serving and being useful for the Ones i served. Coincidentally, the first dungeon i became a houseboy at, had primarily Sadistic players working there. Damn, i can still feel my ass burning from all the abuse it was given at the time…. Continue reading “i Don’t Want to be a Masochist”

Orally Pleasing

OrallyIt takes just one time…. The taste of the moistness drives me crazy. The action and movement of my tongue drives Her wild. The connection gets stronger each time She allows the tongue to dance with the clit! The goal? Drive Her crazier than She already is…. To make Her look at me as if i am one big tongue specifically for Her use… i don’t want Her to be able to walk. Not at all… When i’m done, i want Her to be so immobilized that She CAN’T move. Continue reading “Orally Pleasing”

The Conquering

The ConqueringWhat She doesn’t realize is that when i challenge Her, i am actually challenging myself… i never want to win….. i just want any and everything that i ever imagined, to be realized and then surpassed… i go to Her, knowing She can take me beyond my limits… And then bring me to Hers…. i can’t be conquered if She is afraid of conquering…

i REALLY want my fears to be realized… i NEED to fear Her… What good is submitting when She doesn’t want someone to submit to Her? Continue reading “The Conquering”

The Taste of Moistness

MoistnessThey have said the thirst is real…  i am living proof of that. There is nothing sweeter than having the wetness of a Woman in my mouth. The steps taken to get a Woman to the point of Her gaining excitement on a sexual level is one i do enjoy. The attraction is natural. It’s the action that brings Her to the point of wanting me inside of Her. OR, at the very least, wanting my tongue, finger, any object that will help satisfy Her sensual urges. Continue reading “The Taste of Moistness”

My Journey of Dominance (Conclusion)

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The Journey of Dominance

After that recommendation, I decided to pursue another houseboy position as this Mistress wasn’t the type of Mistress that I envisioned serving. I heard about an organization named The Eulenspiegel Society (TES). At the time, I was young and most of the members were at least (Well, they looked) 20 years older than me, so it was a little intimidating and they weren’t very inviting to someone who didn’t ‘look’ like them. But I joined and they also hosted parties and the first event I went to was at a dungeon that had just opened and I decided to go, as I might meet some people I can talk to. This was the best move I could make as I offered my services during the party to the Headmistress of the new dungeon and she accepted. After the party ended, I stayed to clean and make the place look good and at that moment, I asked if I could leave and she asked for my pager number as they had a party scheduled the next night. She never called but that Monday at precisely 5 PM (I remember because I was leaving my job at the time of the page) I received the page that changed my life. She offered me the position I had been seeking and I became an official houseboy! Continue reading “My Journey of Dominance (Conclusion)”

The Art of Public Play

public playi am not one to play in public, PERIOD! It’s not something i actively participate in, although i AM a voyeur and enjoy watching public play, it’s just that i don’t want to play in public, simple. i have been in the scene for 25 years and i am ALWAYS asked that question on a regular basis. ‘How come you don’t play in public, Why don’t you play at parties?’ Well, everyone has a fetish and needs and wants. If someone feels comfortable doing what they do in public, then by all means, i salute you! But, just because you enjoy doing so in public, doesn’t mean i have to as well. That’s absurd! Continue reading “The Art of Public Play”

Can i Be On Call To Be Abused?

mo1hshseu61s6xlsho1_500So, i am constantly thinking, ok, maybe i’ll call it fantasizing, of what i’d like to do or how i’d like to be used by a Woman. Now, don’t get it twisted, i know there are Pro Dommes, Financial Dommes and just Women Who just take advantage of any man They can get Their hands on (And, if You are reading this incorrectly, don’t blame me as i am NOT looping all of these Women into one category, i am just using examples to make a point, so PLEASE read what is being written…..). No, i’m not talking about that type of using as that will never be me (Whether it’s because i don’t have that type of cash or because i am just that smart to NOT give a Woman money just because She says so, that’s what my future wife’s role is! lol). But, i have a constant feeling of being used and abused by a Woman for the sheer enjoyment of Her being able to use and abuse me without me expecting or wanting anything in return. Continue reading “Can i Be On Call To Be Abused?”